6.22.25: Automatic Sleep

Sleep used to be automatic. Now it’s an achievement. You try melatonin, magnesium, herbal teas with names like “Moon Calm.” Still, your brain runs laps at 2:47 AM. You replay conversations from 2015. You imagine arguments you’ll never have. You rewrite your resume, plan your future, question your past. Then you check the time—again. Every minute you’re awake becomes pressure. You Google “how to sleep fast.” That doesn’t help. You try meditating but start worrying about your posture. Eventually, you pass out from exhaustion, not peace. Wake up tired. Start again. The cycle continues. The pillow never judges. It just waits.